Tuesday, November 18, 2008

I'm confused...where is my assertivosity?

Ok...everyone knows me. I do not bite my tongue. I tell it like it is. I've lost friends over it...and family...and I'm ok with that. However, people also love me for it. It is who I am, and it's gotten me to where I am today. So why on earth can't I get it together at work?

I am the eyes and ears of the CEO. When she moves, I move...that's what she told me when she interviewed me. So when she gives a directive, it is for me to make sure it happens come hell or highwater (whatever that means). So...why is it that I haven't found my voice at work yet? Why can't I lay down the law? I've NEVER had a problem in that area...until now. Hell, at my last job...my BOSS didn't make a move unless I approved it on most ocassions.

I think it's because I'm the freshman among the upperclassmen. While they don't have more importance than I do--or vice versa--they've been there longer. I know what the problem is...and even when they are talking me out of the directive that I've delivered, I still know what actually NEEDS to be done. But, for some reason...I am frozen.

Any help?

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